Suicide Is Inconvenient
Y’know, I was thinking in the
bathroom the other day. That’s where I do most of
my thinking, actually. And I came to a conclusion: it’s probably really
hard to kill
yourself while living in a dorm. It seemed to me that it’d be more
of an effort than I’m
willing to expend.
First and foremost, there’s the difficulty
of getting your implements of extinction
past your roommate. Sure, you can smuggle in rope for a noose, a gun,
plastic bags for
suffocation or razorblades in your backpack, but you’ve got to hide
them pretty well, or
else there’s many inconvenient questions to answer.
But let’s say that you do manage to get your
stuff in and get it hidden. Now
there’s the question of how you’re gonna kill yourself. If you want
to hang yourself,
you’ve got to find something to hang yourself from. In my dorm room,
the only thing to
hang yourself from is the water pipes. You hang yourself from these
babies, the damn
things are going to break, water will be everywhere, and then you have
a LOT of
explaining to do.
Using a gun will just make a lot of noise,
and you’ll probably flinch at the last
minute, thus only grazing yourself and probably putting a hole in your
favourite poster. If
you do manage to keep a steely grip on Mr. Revolver, you’ll most likely
end up waking
your neighbor when the gun goes off. Then, as you’re lying on the
ground,
an
ever-widening pool of blood growing around your prone body, the last
thing you hear will
be a pounding on the door and the words, “Hey, could you keep it down?
People are
trying to sleep!” (And it doesn’t matter what time you choose, someone
is always asleep)
Plus, if you want to kill yourself in your
room, you have to work around your
roommate’s schedule. If his classes are about the same time as yours,
there’s not going to
be a lot of free time for you to work up the initiative to want to
snuff your flame of
existence.
So, if you can’t end it all in your room.
Where to go next? The bathrom’s a good
choice if you want to slit your wrists. That way, there’ll be no messy
blood mop up. The
water in the shower will do nicely to wash away all that messy blood.
But there are
people in and out all of the fucking time. If you manage to figure
out a time with no
people to distract/stop you, there’s the manner of remembering to slit
your wrists in the
right way- down the vein, not across. Plus, if you’re lying in the
shower, the thing’ll most
likely be running after you pass out from lack of vital fluids. Most
likely a neighbor’s
gonna notice that. Then, there’s the noise. What noise, you ask? Well,
there’s two that
quickly pop into my head. First, the screams of pain as the soap
accidently
gets into the
cuts in your wrists. Secondly, the thump as your body drops to the
tiles and you fade into
unconciousness.
So, in conclusion, if you want to kill
yourself,
don’t do it in the dorms. Wait until
that next trip home. You can save your folks that nasty call from the
campus police
asking to come and identify the body AND you’ll die in the familiar
setting you grew
up in.